The year was 2009, it was the end of winter and I was sick as a dog, I was also an Assistant Store Manager at Blockbuster video, and was being called in while deathly ill, to be demoted.
Semi-Retired is a multi-part series that focuses on Hypnodommes that are no longer as active as they once were. This series does
not explore the reasons for their absence, but does explore the marks they left on me, and maybe you too.
Semi-Retired Part 3: Pun About Tessa Fields’ Last Name
Where did Tessa Fields go?
Full disclosure, we’re friends in real life but we haven’t had a chance to talk for a while… as in a long while, so I don’t know exactly, and also, it’s not my place to speak for her even if I did know.
That said, sometimes if you don’t know exactly what you want, it’s easier not to make a public decision even if you’ve made half of a private one.
I’m not sharing any secret insider information about her here or anywhere in this post. In this portion, this is just more a refection of my own personal experiences when it’s come to quitting jobs, breakups, and leaving groups I’ve been a part of.
Part of it’s a question of how you leave, or if you’re really leaving, and what kinds of doors could you be shutting/bridges could you be burring based on that choice, you don’t want to accidentally fuck something up if you don’t have to right?
With Tessa Fields, I want to offer up a question to you the reader, and that is:
WARNING: This post may disillusion you about the realities of Femdom Hypnosis, reader discretion is advised
Semi-Retired is a multi-part series that focuses on Hypnodommes that are no longer as active as they once were. This series does not explore the reasons for their absence (okay, this one does-ish), but does explore the marks they left on me, and maybe you too.
Semi-Retired Part 2: The Mysterious Mystery of Nikki Fatale
Retired, for the sake of these articles, can also be the polite was of saying the woman in question has quit or otherwise left the scene, maybe without fanfare, and maybe without any kind of announcement. All that said, this is a tricky one to talk about without talking about the “why”, or at least heavily implying what that “why” is. So, I’ll be as businesslike as possible and know that I am not alleging anything.
Semi-Retired is a multi-part series that focuses on Hypnodommes that are no longer as active as they once were. This series does not explore the reasons for their absence, but does explore the marks they left on me, and maybe you too.
Part 1: My Second Hypno-Crush
I love Lady Lita.
And honestly, I’ve loved her from afar for a VERY long time.
And by love her, what I mean is I have very fond feelings for her work, and my history with her as I don’t know her at all.
She was an important figure in developing the scene, was immensely popular for a good chunk of time, and for some people she was a problematic character.
I’m going to brush over most of that, and instead focus on what she meant to my development.
Are you on Twitter? Do you follow the Dommes you like either as people, or as content providers? If so, have you ever seen those tweets about guys who say they want to be a slave but don’t do shit when asked?
How about the tweets about how cumming for someone or having an erection or whatever don’t mean shit?
Do you ever think that’s weird, because clearly our erections are what drive us to spend money on this stuff in the first place?
Well, I’ve been thinking about these sentiments a lot, but maybe not in the way you’re thinking.
Why Hypnosis Is Bullshit (even though it isn’t)
Okay, let’s just get this out there, hypnosis is bullshit.
(I would hope you’re already seeing where I’m going with this and not getting worked up and angry, like ‘how dare he…’)
Why is it bullshit? Here’s why!
So let me get this straight, someone is going to talk at me about fluffy clouds or stairs, and count in a soft voice, and I’m going to sort of what? Zone out, and then my mind is going to become an open book where you can say things to my hidden parts and I’ll think, and feel, and do things?
But I’ll only do those things if what you’re saying to me is something I already want, like I’ve already come up with my own ideas and you’re just saying them back to me, and that’s supposed to a big deal?
Oooooh, what a special skill you have to say something I already want, and have me think something I’m already thinking…
Hypnosis sure is bullshit.
There was a blog I thought I wanted to write, one about what Customers and Providers owe each other in this business, and every time I tried I didn’t like its shape or tone. It came down to me saying, everyone should be doing better, and everyone should be more aware of the realities and driving forces of this marketplace.
Why marketplace? Because, again, I think about things in these terms and because my work is based on the commercial retail side of things.
But no provider wants to read a screed from some guy talking about how no one is giving you money because you’re a powerful woman, they’re giving you their dick dollars because your presentation speaks to their cocks. It’s not a conversation, it’s not wholly accurate or reflective of the power, business, and emotional dynamics of our scene, and more than anything, it’s a guy talking about how important dicks are in a femdom world.
(Like I said, I never liked how it started to come together.)
So, this wasn’t one of the blogs I was planning to write this week, but it being a particularly dark and tiring winter, what better time than to talk about something we never mention:
The Loneliness of Perversion!!!
It All Starts With Her:
Goddess Marquesa and Erotic Hypnosis
WARNING: Since I’m writing about one person’s considerable contribution to our scene, there’s a danger it’s going to read as shameless-in-the-bag adoration akin to those goddess worship devotionals we all know so well.
That’s not what this is at all, I promise.
There’s low points to her work, stuff that didn’t work, and stuff that was both corny and not worth the money (which is the story with everyone who has ever made anything), BUT this is a documentation of history and not devotion.
This isn’t a 2000 word add, it’s history.
(Also, duh, I mean I’m at least a little in the bag for her, and I’ve never hid that)
The Power of Suggestion, Your Fandom, and Taste:
How We’re Prone to Doing it Wrong
There’s a couple of bands I really like that are/were new to me. They are, The Sword, and Witchcraft. Both bands have been around for over a decade, and what I mean by new-to-me is that I haven’t been listening to them for half my life or longer.
I like these bands because they make good, imaginative, acoustically pleasing butt-rock.